Sorry I’m a day late. 😦 DH had my laptop on a business trip so I couldn’t post.

I’m annoyed at myself because I finally found 2 CDs full of wedding pics that I didn’t include in my wedding album. The pics aren’t the end of the world – but it did have people that I would’ve liked to include in the album. Pics of friends and family friends that made the trip to see us. I can’t decide whether or not to order another book with extra pages added in, or just to suck it up and get over it. 😦 After all, *I* know they were there. Is it really worth another $40 and having an “extra” wedding book? Poop. 😦

What do you guys think?

I totally forgot to mention this after our LA/SD trip. Remember my friend, B, who decided she no longer wanted to be friends? Well, when I went to visit some of our mutual college friends in SD this past May, B messaged me on Facebook saying that she wanted to hang out with our mutual friend, A. However, the only time A was free to see B was during our group hangout time at another friend’s house. B wanted to know if she could crash the hangout time (but she totally understood if I didn’t want that to happen). I said it was fine. I was under no delusion that B actually wanted to see me.

Well, it was good to see her. Not because I actually enjoyed her company. (I didn’t. It was weird and awkward.) But because it served a powerful lesson. I realized that I was not missing out with B not being in my life. In fact, I was shocked and constantly confronted with this thought that B was really quite the Debbie Downer. She was truly a negative person. Now, B is going through a tough time with her mom (her mom, I think, is dying) and that does put a damper on everything. I am not suggesting that B should go around pretending to be happy when she is not. However, I never realized that she has ALWAYS been like this. Everything is horrible or sad or whatever. Or everything is beautiful and joyful and wonderful.

I never truly realized that for two of the most significant events in my life (my wedding and my pregnancy), she was unhappy about them BOTH and took a long time to be happy for me because of her issues. AND, I allowed her to color those experiences for me. (Of course, I still had an awesome time, but I went out of my way to be “sensitive.”) (Come to think of it, she was really against me dating DH, too.)

When seriously, FUCK THAT SHIT. It was my fucking wedding and my first pregnancy. B should’ve just sucked it up and LIED. Yeah, I said it. She should have lied and acted like it was awesome even though she was a complete wretch. Seriously, all of DH’s groomsmen thought she was mean. And if enough people think that, it’s probably true.

So, what is the point of my rambling? Merely this. I am glad she’s no longer in my life. I am GRATEFUL. Of course, she was a good friend for a long time and I do cherish my times with her. But I am no longer the person I was (Thank the Good Lord) and we are no longer good for each other. I am glad I got a chance to realize that.

Sorry for being so lazy this week. I think last week’s heat wave sucked all the energy out of me. This week, I reveled in reading and watching TV. I didn’t feel like blogging. 😦 Bad me!

My brother’s wedding went off well! It was good to be around family and friends. I have a new sister! The kiddos were awesomely cute. DS had cold feet last minute and refused to pull the wagon with DD in it so I had to walk him down the aisle and a bridesman pulled the wagon. It was the most physically miserable I’ve ever been at a wedding. 90+, facing the hot afternoon sun – and I was in a dress! I can only imagine how hot and miserable (physically – not emotionally) all the guys at the wedding were! Sheesh!

The reception was lovely (although hot!) and the food was delicious. DS had an entourage of at least five adults and they were all exhausted chasing him around. He had an awesome time. He as really tired, though – and requested to go home and go to sleep in his bed while we were driving home. Of course, I threw both kiddos in the bath first because they were disgusting. Yick.

This weekend, I’m going on a girls’ weekend and leaving DD for the first time. Granted, she’ll be with DH (and so will DS) but I am a lot worried. Not because DH can’t handle it, but because DD refuses the bottle. But as everyone keeps reassuring me, she will eat when she’s hungry enough, and if she doesn’t, 27 hours is not long enough for her to starve. (Especially as she is SO FAT.)

Ok. Off to read. 😀

Tonight’s rehearsal dinner went better than expected. The kiddos were great and exhausted. I’m a little worried DS didn’t drink enough water (it was 90 today) but by the time we got home, he was so tired, he was begging to go to sleep but I was trying to force him to drink water. He won. I guess if he’s really thirsty, he’ll drink the water by his bed. I will just have to trust that he knows his own body.

The things I worry about. Tomorrow, I am hoping will go like today. Much better than expected.

As for the wedding itself, DS is pulling DD down the aisle in a covered wagon. Everyone agreed at the rehearsal that it was awesomely cute – so it can only be MORE awesomely cute tomorrow. YAY!

My brain is mush. 😦 My brother is getting married on Saturday and I’m bummed that I really won’t get to see him at all since he is so busy
(understandably so). Plus, this is likely the only time he’ll be able to visit this year so unless we go see him in DC for Christmas or something, I won’t see him at all. 😦 It makes me super sad. Partly because I want him to see my awesome kids, and partly because, well, he is AWESOME and I miss him. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO LIVE IN DC???

Also, a bunch of my cousins are flying for the wedding (harumph, they didn’t fly in for MY wedding, *grumble*grumble*grumble*) and will only be staying the weekend as well. I know it’s selfish of me to expect people to stay longer (especially to see my awesome babies) but I really am sad. We are all so far-flung and so rarely get to see each other. It seems a shame not see them longer.

In about 30 minutes, the premier of The Legend of Korra premiers on TV!! YAY! Even though we’re on the West Coast, the HD channels usually broadcast on EST and then again at the West Coast time. YAY!!

That is all. Today will be filled with wedding prep. I have to find a dress, some shoes (because my feet got bigger after my first pregnancy), and perhaps get a pedicure. I am excited. 😀